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About Jordan

Hey everyone. Thanks for stopping by. I love to read and write. I started this blog to hone my craft of writing and to discuss different topics pertaining to my life! I am self-published, "Pieces of Me: A Collection of Poems and Short Stories." I truly believe writing is an outlet for people to express how they feel, and hopefully when you read what I've written you'll be inspired.

Well-Read Black Girl

 

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Well-Read Black Girl by Glory Edim literally gave me all the feels. I first caught interest in reading this book on her Instagram @wellreadblackgirl. Here she posts anything and everything related to literature and incorporates all of the #blackgirlmagic. So I literally don’t even know what to say to continue because this book was just that amazing.

I loved learning about how each author fell in love with reading, and what experiences they took away from what reading taught them in their early stages of life into womanhood. Each authors story was different and you were able to feel and understand why reading changed their lives and how in a way, it was an outlet. @Gabby3shabby aka Gabyy Sidibe, ya’ll know her for her character as Precious in Push and Becky Williams from Empire. Her story, whew chile! It stuck out to me the most because she talked about growing up she wasn’t the favorite child and reading was an escape for her essentially. All she wanted to do was stick to herself and mind her own business. Her father was religious and her mother seemed to just do what her husband asked, so Gabby grew up not understanding/liking how when it came to her fathers religious beliefs she had to be the stay at home wife, and her brother could do as he pleased. So, because she went against the grain her relationship with her family just wasn’t the typical.

Gabby says, “It took a while for me to unlearn the bad lessons my parents taught me about my existence by accident, as well as the bad lessons the media has been teaching me on purpose (that’s another story entirely), but I’m glad I have learned. I’m even grateful for the bad lessons I was taught in the first place. As it turns out, I’m pretty stubborn, so teaching me that my life would be bad fueled my ambition to have the best life possible. And I do. Ahmed is still both my parents’ favorite child, and that’s fine. I’m the one who grew up to be rich, so they can all suck it.” That last part! (emoji clapping hands). I just felt exhilarated for you Gabby because it was like you were saying, ‘hey I may not have had the ideal childhood and what you all expected me but the gag is, I made it and I’m here. And hello… it doesn’t help that you’re rich! Go girl, you give me so much inspiration!

This book I think will show future generations of women of all ages to embrace who they are. We as black woman are so powerful, and we can do so much! If only we did things like this, instead of what only society shows of how the black women is always “black and angry.” I digress…because baby! I can give ya’ll a full rant about what I think society thinks us black women can’t do. Did you catch that?

I wish to all who is reading this post please get this book. If it made you feel like I did you won’t be disappointed! Plus, there’s a (poop emoji) ton of other books that each person discussed in their particular chapter. If you’re a nerd like me, you’ll be reading so much more! This book is inspirational, uplifting, empowering, and with an abundance of #blackgirlmagic Queen-dopeness you’ll feel like YOU CAN DO ANYTHING, and YOU CAN!

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Room; First Thoughts Fiction

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Here it is yall… my next review for my #firstthoughtsfiction segement. I know it’s been a minute.

So, I’ve never been the type to read a book before watching the movie… and the book Room by Emma Donoghue wasn’t the exception to the rule. I enjoyed the book, as well as the movie (it’s on Netflix) but I was skeptical in even wanting to complete the book nor watch the movie just because it was such a slow start for the story to pick up while reading. I must admit, when I started the book life happened (brown skin girl emoji shrug), so that could be a small part as to why it took me a minute to start.

Emma Donoghue is a best selling author with multiple books; Room being one of the books that put her on the best selling charts. This book is raw, intense, whimsical, and heavy just to give a few details. Don’t be expecting it to be all sunshine and rainbows, you’ll definitely need to take a break sometimes.

What made this book so different was, it was told in the perspective of the little boy, Jack. Room was about a mother “Ma” who lived with her son Jack in an 11 x 11 room. She was kidnapped and raped and held captive for years until she was able with the help of her son to escape. The first half of this book is all about Ma and Jack in room. He perceives everything as “fake” except themselves. Although this book was deep and unbearable at times, there were times where Donoghue showed Jack’s intelligence but also his young-mindedness; you’ll have to read the book to truly understand what I mean.

The second half of the book was about Jack and Ma’s escape and what their lives were like after being free. For me, the second half was easier to swallow, but you could tell that even being ‘home’ for Jack was different. For the mother she struggled and suffered from being able to express herself. She was resilient and did everything she could with the circumstances she was given to protect herself and her son; but being in a ‘normal’ environment took a toll on her (depicted only in the movie).

In Room for Jack he seemed comfortable, at ease and safe. He didn’t quiet understand that outside of room there was a whole world he knew nothing about. I loved how Donoghue portrayed Jack’s emotions with learning all of this new information. It was a lot for him as a five-year-old boy to go from having only knowing the room to the world. In the movie, I think Jack was depicted as he was in the novel. You could see and feel while reading how he had to handle his old and new life.

What I wish was consistent in the book more so than the movie, was you were able to see more about Jack and Ma after they were freed. It showed their everyday life, how Jack adapted too his life outside of room, and more importantly his moms role. She struggled once they were free and wasn’t able to tend to her son, even though she was able too go above and beyond as best she could in the book. Donoghue’s attention to detail was given more life in the movie from Ma’s perspective. I always hear “the movie was better than the book”, but in my opinion that is never the case. I’m a true book lover at heart. Reading a book gives way more detail for me than watching the movie.

When reading this book, please have an open mind. Although I didn’t (lol) and it took me a few times to get the ball rolling, over all it was enjoyable. It was difficult at times to remember that the perspective of the book was told in Jack’s voice. That’s something I had to get use too, but that’s something that kept me intrigued the more I continued to read as well.

If I could leave you with this, imagine being the characters in Room, at least five year old Jack. You have the whole world to live, breath, and make an impression. Leave your mark on the world in someway shape or form. As I type this, I think that’s something the book taught me. Being confined in one space and thinking that’s all there is, you’ll never succeed. Take this book in a sense as a learning lesson. Don’t be confined to thinking you need to stay in one area in your life. Grow, change, and adapt to the circumstances you’re given, even sometimes if they are bad. Things will get better, and you’ll have plenty of time, and space to make a difference and start over. Everyday.

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Goodbye 2018

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With 2018 coming to an end I am ready for the new year. This year I learned the following about myself and plan to keep certain goals (you’ll see below) as the New Year approaches.

  • I don’t have to stretch myself thin for anyone.
  • I can care for people from a distance.
  • Not having low confidence in myself concerning standardized testing.
  • Understanding that I may have low times but I should never let it defeat me for days ahead.
  • I passed the reading portion of my test that had me STRESSED out; now, the next step is to pass the writing portion.
  • I bought myself a new computer.
  • Read two books a month.
  • Continue to build my credit and save properly.
  • Memorize more poems and perform them; which includes going to more events/networking.
  • Continue to write and publish books.
  • Get my Doctorate in Mental Health Counseling.
  • Staying Positive.
  • Continue to love myself more.

Let  2018 stay in the past and I hope you continue to make smart decisions to better yourself going forward. It’s okay to have set backs, it’s part of life, just don’t get stuck. Have a great and prosperous New Year, Be Blessed and I wish you nothing but success!

Feel free to comment and let me know what goals you’ve set for yourself! 🙂

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Can Exes Really Be Friends?

 So, I’ve discussed the above title of this post numerous times, and I am honestly on the fence. I think exes can be friends depending on the stage both parties are at in their lives. Example, if you and a boy dated in middle school and ya’ll broke up, okay cool no problem there. I don’t see any middle school couples seriously falling in love forever, wanting to build a future together, etc. Not saying it can’t happen, but in my middle school days, myself and my friends had ‘little’ boyfriends that our parents may or may not have known about and we were ‘together’ and that was it. I mean really, in middle school, what kind of ‘dating’ was there? As funny as it is now, what could we really do? Eat lunch together, pass notes, and maybe walk each other home, lol. Oh young love, how innocent it was back then. But, before I continue, I had one boyfriend in middle school and if you’re reading this, I’m just setting the foundation, lol. I was very happy back in my middle school days. This post is not to make it seem like my middle school love was horrible; it was what it was, I’m not saying you meant nothing, we’ve clearly both grown and matured. Yay adult-hood! There’s a bigger picture to this post.

Now, once we start hitting high school/college level I think even then it’s a yes, it just all depends on how deep the relationship was. Did ya’ll meet each others parents, were ya’ll going out on dates frequently, spending time together/getting to know each other? In high school I had a small handful of boyfriends, one I dated twice, but I don’t speak to them. There’s no harm or foul I just think we (and like most couples) people grow apart, ya’ll don’t hang in the same circles anymore, or even if you do hopefully it’s not awkward.

In today’s world exes should be able to be cordial if both parties feel it’s necessary. For me, my first serious boyfriend was definitely hard to get over because I was in love with him, and vice versa. This was the man I could’ve sworn I was going to marry. Granted we started dating as we were going into college, but like other boyfriends I had, I eventually got over him. That relationship was the serious, ‘Dangerously in Love’ love lol. Being in that relationship, like ANY relationship should taught me things about myself and for any future relationships.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong being friends with your ex, but it’s harder for females to get over our ex because we’re in love, we have memories, pictures, and gifts to remind us what we once had. Woman are emotional, and we tend to be the more passionate partner in our relationships.

To be transparent, with 2018 coming to an end, for any past/newly/future boyfriends I may have, yes I’m speaking this into existence. I only see us being cordial. I don’t want to reconnect, get back together, pick back up where we left off. If we were unable to fix things while we were dating then clearly it wasn’t meant to be. No, I’m not writing you off, BUT I am deciding that if I think you’re not good for my mental health then I’m leaving you in my past. Or, if I just really don’t think you’ve changed in anyway then it’s a No. I’m not saying if we see each other I won’t speak, or if you text me I won’t respond, things are just different. The relationship and memories we had will be just that. I don’t see or want to get back with any old/future/blast from the past relationships because I’m not compromising any more. I’m just choosing to love me more than I loved you. To anyone who’s dated me you know I care hard and I love even harder, but I’m being selfish with me. I’ve literally always been in relationships and I’m not trying to get my heart broken, again, or deal with the ups and downs that come with relationships. I’m not anti relationship, I’m not anti second chances, because I’ve done it before; but I will definitely be taking my own time into consideration.

I’m choosing in this up coming new year to work on ME. Do things for me. So, if you’re an ex and you’re reading this. Text me if you feel like talking, like a picture/leave a comment (not that social media should be the “be all end all”  in any capacity), but just don’t be a stranger. Treat me like a friend if you can handle that, and I’ll return the same energy.

To any followers, male specifically since this one is for you. Sure, I don’t mind going on a date, or two; but that’s just it. Don’t tell me later on how much you like me, I won’t be giving you the time of day. I just need to love and take care of Jordan first. If you’re really that interested in me, you’ll be patient. If not, you’re still the homie.

To any female followers, I’m not saying you can’t be friends with your ex, but I’m learning the only real way to get over anyone you’ve loved is to not talk to them as much, keep yourself busy, and EVENTUALLY it will happen. Trust me, I just went through this, and it was super annoying. As crazy as it sounds, one day I just woke up and it was like, oh, I’m not thinking of (insert name) as much. You will find your peace again. It’ll take time.

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Confession Time

confession timeSo… I have a confession to make. I have this idea that poetry is supposed to rhyme. People always ask me, “How long have you been writing?” or “What made you write a book?” My answer is always the same. I’ve always loved to read and write ever since I was a child, so it just made sense to me to follow my dreams.

My original plan was to write children’s books, and while that’s still on my many list of things to accomplish I really started to hone in on my poetry and short stories once I got into high school. From there, things just took off for me.

Confession two, whenever I think of poetry I think of some bomb poetry slam/contest/battle. I want to be the person whose writing is so amazing that people don’t always catch the innuendo’s. I just want to be mind blowing when I spit my poetry. I understand that comes with confidence, and putting myself out there more; I’m working on it.

I’ve been reading different poetry books from some amazing authors and one day it hit me. Their writing is so simple but hold it holds so much meaning. I have a tendency to over think and I want things perfect when it comes to my work I equate poetry with big words and double meanings; and things that people have to read over and over to understand.

I’m loving this new space I’m in with my work. I can’t wait to keep sharing on all platforms. I am understanding that my poetry doesn’t have to be long and elaborate, although sometimes it is just because I feel like I haven’t gotten everything out I wanted to say. I’m loving that I’m learning to write shorter and just get to the point, plus, it’ll be easier for me to memorize :). But like Erykah Badu says, “Now keep in mind that I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my sh*t.”

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the Secret Life of CeeCee Wilkes; First Thoughts Fiction

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the Secret Life of CeeCee Wilkes by Diane Chamberlain is a book that has twists and turns every chapter. In short, this book is about survival, secrets, love and lies. The main character CeeCee Wilkes grows from being a naive, gullible, and care free teen and transforms to a woman who depends on the relationships she’s built to keep a secret that could destroy all she’s worked hard to forget.

This was my first time reading a book by this author, and it won’t be my last. Once I was done reading I immediately found Diane Chamberlain’s website to discover she’s written more turn twisting books that look just as interesting.

the Secret Life of CeeCee Wilkes is about second chances. CeeCee did the best she could with the hand she was dealt, and without giving too much away, she was able to turn the tables and win. There were times she counted herself out but she had an amazing support system that didn’t give up on her even when she felt like giving up on herself.

This book had me in my feelings each chapter. I felt like I was part of the family and I didn’t want anymore destruction to happen to CeeCee even if she was part of the problem. She was a protector, a lover and a survivor. Just imagine being in her shoes… falling in love and having your whole life change because of someone who you trusted whole heartedly.

If you’re looking for a book that will have you on a roller coaster ride this is it. Diane Chamberlain has become one of my favorite authors.

Would you be able to keep a secret for years that would affect your future?

Little Bee; First Thoughts Fiction

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Little Bee by Chris Cleave took me forever to read simply because life got in the way. I had to start it over three times; with the third time being the final charm (pun intended).

Little Bee was about a young Nigerian refugee woman (Little Bee) who was released from her detention center and travels miles away to the only people she knows; the O’Rourke family who saved her life but also tried their hardest to forget the tragic incident of how they met. So I don’t spoil too much, this book I would say has a theme of ‘wanting to be free.’ Every character, small or large is suffering, or going through some type of journey that they only hope keeps them safe and sound on the other side. This book is about second chances. This book is about starting over the best way you know how but being scared (you know what-less) because you don’t know what the outcome will turn out to be.

What I loved about this book was each chapter alternated between Little Bee and Sarah’s (the wife in the story) perspective. Little Bee’s perspective was about survival, never forgetting where she came from, and trying her hardest to re-create herself in a world she really had no business being part of. Little Bee studied how people in England carried themselves because she thought that would be the key to saving her life. She felt like changing her vernacular and knowing facts about a world she would’ve never been placed in if it wasn’t that day on the beach with Sarah was her out. Her way of being free and starting over.

For Sarah, she too was about surviving but in the sense of, she had to focus on the present and not go back to who she was. A woman who was lost and just seemed to go through the motions. Essentially, she was changing for the better but still held on to who she used to be. Sarah was a people pleaser, but failed to focus on how to properly love, balance, and care for her family. It was like she was in denial about things and she knew it but she didn’t take the steps to figure out how to get out of those moments. So she went about her daily routine, struggling because she never spoke up until it was too late; but redeeming herself when Little Bee came back into her life was her way of being free. Helping someone else was they key for her life to be better.

Little Bee and Sarah are one in the same, and it’s crazy because their lives were totally different prior to when they were put together and it changed everything. Their willingness to help one another in a time of turmoil, both physically, and globally shaped who they became as women. They depended on each other and I think subconsciously knew that with all the secrets they kept they needed each other because one couldn’t survive without the other.

Chris Cleave also has another book,  entitled Incendiary. I enjoyed his style of writing  in Little Bee and hopefully you will too. Although it was a slow read in the beginning the relationships the characters developed with each other continuously peaked my interest. Each chapter there was something I wasn’t expecting. A story of two women trying to survive in a world they felt like they didn’t belong too.

 

 

My Motivators!

Hey ya’ll! I know it’s been a minute, so please forgive me. I’ve been dealing with some writers block, and now I’m here to tell ya’ll how GREAT ya’ll are! Yes Yes! This post is dedicated to all my MOTIVATORS.

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*I wish I had real confetti coming from the screen, so just pretend this is the Happy Birthday Confetti that falls from the top of your I-phone when you send someone a ‘Happy Birthday’ text*

Ya’ll push me to be my best and some of ya’ll I don’t even know on a personal level. If you’re still confused as to who ya’ll are, it’s you. It’s the people that hustle, and grind to reach a goal or a dream they have no matter what. It’s the people that constantly support me and push me to be a better me! I will try to shout out every person I can think of that pushes me to be my best, and if you aren’t mentioned don’t take it personal. I am not only shouting out the people who I know, talk to on a regular basis, went to school with, or never met; I’m also hoping this post will help those who need that extra drive because you simply aren’t motivated to GET UP OFF YOUR FEET AND GET MOVING! Don’t get discouraged. You can be that person! You should have a select group of friends or family, someone that knows you that helps you be better in one way shape or form. Someone with drive that you want to learn to have. Someone that is an entrepreneur, a go-getter.

I appreciate my motivators because it’s hard to be an adult. Life is hard, but ya’ll know the saying ‘nothing worth having comes easy’ and if that isn’t the truth I don’t know what is. Trust me when I tell you I am talking to myself here too. I get discouraged, stressed, over-whelmed, and anxious, super easy but I have to remember things will be okay and I have people in my corner always routing for me! I am my biggest cheerleader and my worst enemy sometimes!

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To my Mother and my Sisters, I thank you for your continuous love and support as I’ve grown up and come into my own. All three of you are super moms! Mom, you’ve raised three children and have done an OUTSTANDING job. Karae and Monique, I’ve always looked up to you and even see you as two extra mothers. Now that I am older,  I can appreciate the wisdom and guidance you two have given me compared to when I was younger I just saw it as annoying. Sometimes I still do, I’m working on it! You all know how I am stubborn and don’t like being told what to do if I’ve already made up my mind about something.

Dad, Thank you for being the dad I always wanted. You have raised me with mom like your own. I love you and appreciate everything you do for me. I thank you for being a great example for me for my future children, I know you’ll be an amazing Papa to them. Most importantly, thank you for bringing my mother happiness!

To Olivia, It’s us til the end best friend. You’re always in my corner, making sure I take my  time with things and trying to calm my crazy. You motivate me and make sure I don’t freak out about literally everything. Thank you for your being you. You are truly an amazing person. You’ve gotten your masters and I couldn’t be more proud of you. I know when I finally receive mine you’ll be there to cheer me on!

Kela, You are just a ray of sunshine my Piesecrie! Did I take it back or what! You are always praying for me, and I love you for that. I thank you for always putting a smile on my face and keeping me grounded.

Aza, You’re magical. Our friendship is near and dear to my heart. You know I’m always only a call away. I appreciate your whole life lol and your voice is something special. I am thankful to have met you when I did. Your daughter is going to be amazing. I am proud of you always. I love you and baby Bells.

Tia, We haven’t even known each other long but I appreciate you more than you know! You’re kind, patient, and always willing to help me. I can’t believe we are both published authors! Isn’t it amazing how God places people in the right place at the right time! We’ll be on somebody’s talk show one day! lol

Danni, You’re practically at the finish line to have your dream job! Nurse Danni has a ring to it! You’ve stepped out on faith with your career and that is amazing to me! That gives me strength to never give up and keep pursuing my dream. Our friendship I cherish dearly. You are so strong and I am glad to have you in my life.

Amber, Your drive is something crazy! You’re always thinking of ways to be better and make your brands better! You inspire me to build more on my blog and so many other ideas I have floating around in my head. I wish I had your confidence, but I’m working on it! Thank you for always helping me when needed and never making me feel like I’m over stepping my boundaries.

Tiffany, Tracey, & Ashley, I am so proud of all three of you! Tiffany, I know your sisters and I graduated together but to see three people I grew up with become doctors is literally mind blowing! Ya’ll are truly black girl magic! The fields you all have entered will never die and I know ya’ll are going to rock it! Tracey and Ashley! Columbia just produces greatness, we’re the best class of course! I couldn’t be more proud of you too! Thank you to the three of you for being an example for me to never give up!

Maui, I have been following you for a few months and your personality is the bomb! I love the fact that you take the time to respond to all your fans and I can’t wait to meet you one day! You inspire me because you are famous in my head already lol, and I just feel like whenever we do meet you’re going to know it’s me because I comment on everything you write lol. I seriously appreciate the time you take to help me with any poetry related question, or even responding to my own personal posts. You literally make my day when I see your name pop up on anything I do. I wish you nothing but continued success, and wether I come to Philly or you come to Virginia I know it’s going to be magical!

Lisa, I’ve known you forever lol but I know I can always count on you. You will forever by my bunny. Our friendship is special to me and I appreciate you. You are always down for a prayer, and that year we went to church together was amazing. I love you. Your spirit is unmatched. We have grown over the years and I am so thankful to still have you as one of the few friends from high school. Keep doing amazing things in your field, you’re necessary. Never let anyone tell you different!

Rina, Cousin my cousin. I love your whole life. You are always thinking on the positive side, something I need to work on more. I miss you, but I know your life in Cali will be what you need! I want to thank you for being a great friend in the few years I’ve known you. We have gotten close over the years and I know I can always count on you for a laugh. Your a passionate person and you’re so caring, I know you’re going to do great things.. duh, because we’re family! lol

Yana, I thank you for always making sure I am good. Your laugh is contagious and I love it! You always tell me how much I inspire you and that means so much to me. I love you. I want you to keep writing and keep honing your other crafts! You know I’m always here to support you just like you support me!

Shar, Thank you for being you. I love this new writing journey your on. I tell you all the time your post make me want to write more. So this time I’m returning the favor. You truly are an inspiration and I am glad to have formed a relationship with you. I know your writing is only going to get better and I can’t wait to travel to all the places you’ve been! I thank you for our friendship, the little we’ve shared I cherish because it was genuine.

Imani, I have only known  you for a few months but you’ve helped me with so much. I appreciate you because you’re honest with me all the time. I love the memories we’ve created and I know I can always trust you for a good prayer session. You are going to do great things as a doctor. Finish up your degree because the world is going to need you! I am thankful to have met you when I did!

Bri, It’s crazy because we’ve never met but I feel like I’ve known you forever. You’re so sweet and you always find a way to make sure I see things differently even if I don’t want too. You’re a crazy talented musician and I know that when you graduate with your masters you know I will be so happy for you! You work hard, and you never give up! You’re always so positive with things, even when sometimes things may not be going your way. I love you sis. I am thankful for our friendship and I can’t wait to see what great things unfold for your life!

Domo, It’s amazing to me that you and I have known each other for a while, but we recently have gotten close over the years. I am thankful for your our relationship and how it’s grown because you are always so sweet, kind, and you’re a great listening ear. I love that you always take the time to check in on me. I tell you all the time that I am happy you found true love and that you give me hope. You are an example of our generation. I am blessed to have you in my life. You always make sure to keep me motivated and remembering that God is going to place me in the right direction.

Cobe, Twin! You are so special to me! I am thankful for you because you always put a smile on my face. I love your voice and your personality. I appreciate you because you are genuine and you always positive. I look to you for support because you tell me what I need to hear not what you think I should hear. I thank you for everything you’ve done for me and being a listening ear.

Shaheed, Man, you’re just a chill person! I thank you for being one of the first few people I’ve ever shared my poetry with that wasn’t another woman. I thank you for always being honest with me and making me laugh lol. You teach me to be less mean lol. I thank you for always listening to me and never judging me. It’s funny, you’re the only male friend I have to motivate me but you’re special to me for that reason. You know what our relationship means to me Sha, I thank you for being someone I can always talk too.

To all my motivators, listed or not I appreciate you! You push me to do better and be better everyday! I can only hope I do the same for you!

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To anyone reading this, I hope it’s helped you see that there are people in your corner, and know even if you feel like you have no one you always have God, and ME, and that’s real. 

 

To The Regina Georges Of The World…

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So….mean girls by definition to me..are sad. Not sad in the sense like, “whoa is me” but they want others to feel their pain. Sad in a sense where they want everyone to always stoop down to their level. Sad in a sense where they are so miserable that they can’t help  but just be mean and miserable. Actually I want to rephrase that, they chose to be mean/miserable. Their actions and attitude affect how they treat people and it usually results in someone like me, cutting them off… and not right away. It takes me a minute to see how the actions y’all display aren’t in my best interest to help me flourish/and our friendship.

I’ve experienced more than one mean girl, and I’m over y’all. Just a quick mini rant, as per usual, I’m the nicest/kind-hearted/self-less individual any person could have in a friend like me. I understand sometimes people aren’t always aware of their actions.. but it can’t be every time. Or even, if I’m telling you what you said bothered me you should be able to correct your behavior so we can move forward.

I really do feel bad for you Regina George. Your insecurities, and your life experiences have made you mean. It’s not fair to me. Whatever you have going on, good or bad, doesn’t give you the right to just treat people how you want to treat people. Someone should’ve told you about your behavior years ago.  It truly does boggle my mind that someone could have been through so much heart ache that they internalize all this hurt and anger. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that every time you encounter someone you’re mean, but the few occasions you’ve spewed your hatred, it’s been at an unnecessary time and it could’ve been prevented.

I’m the friend that likes to talk things out, when both parties are calm and not hot-headed. Trust me I can be like you, but the difference with me is that I have a heart and I truly feel bad when I am mean to someone. My mother has always said I’m the most forgiving person, but I cannot excuse or let you just treat me any kind of way. I don’t understand how I can go through traumatic things in my life and not be like you Regina.

Regina, I wish you the best. There aren’t any hard feelings on my end. When I see you if I see you I’ll speak but I am not going to entertain you any longer. Our relationship has sizzled away and I do not care nor do I feel sorry for the actions you’ve continuously displayed. Good luck in all your future endeavors. I will no longer entertain your sad sad attitude. You do not get an invitation to be part of my life anymore.

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a stolen life; My Thoughts Memoir.

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a stolen life by Jaycee Dugard was suggested to me by a co-worker. She gave me a list of books to read that she deemed as ‘deep’ and ‘heart-wrenching’ so I gave it a chance. Reading the back of the book (fun fact: also known as the blurb) caught my eye. For anyone who hasn’t yet heard of this book it’s about a young girl who was kidnapped and held captive for eighteen years.

a stolen life, thus far, has been the hardest book to read because of the real, honest, and gut turning details Jaycee writes about. Every page I turned there was a detail I couldn’t handle, or something I wasn’t expecting her to say. Jaycee’s story is sad, but also inspiring. She makes it a point to discuss her life pre, post, and present her captivity.

Whenever I picked up my book I would read a whole chapter if I could. Again, somethings were graphic and I couldn’t take my brain to those dark places for too long. Yes the book was a great one, but honestly, I couldn’t imagine ever going through something so horrific as Jaycee did. Something so traumatic as this changes you.

We hear about stories of children, families, relatives, or maybe sometimes people we know being kidnapped. Some come home and some don’t. Jaycee was very lucky.

She says, “On August 26, 2009, I took my name back. My name is Jaycee Lee Dugard. I don’t think of myself as a victim, I simply survived an intolerable situation.”

What’s different about this book is that throughout Jaycee gives reflection moments. In certain chapters there’s a focus on how she felt during specific instances in her life during captivity. Earlier I mentioned her story being inspiring, and it is because you see the growth she experiences because of it.  Like she stated, she didn’t see herself as the victim. Jaycee always seemed to have this free spirit about her, she always seemed hopeful.

Her story is unique and I can only hope no other family has to go through what hers has. While her story is unfortunate she has done some great things afterwards. She has overcome obstacles and has started her life over.

Below is her foundation she has started, one of the many positives that has come from a horrible situation.

Check out her website. I hope you enjoyed her book as much as I did.

Her foundation is The JAY C Foundation Inc. http://thejaycfoundation.org/