We’re Going to Need More Wine; First Thoughts Fiction

 

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If you weren’t already in love with Gabrielle Union-Wade now, you’re going to love her more because of her book We’re Going to Need More Wine. She’s witty, funny, personable, and just down right the shit. It’s funny how we read a book, or watch a movie and we think that gives us some unspoken access to a celebrities life, ironically this book does just that. I felt like I was listening to a good girlfriend tell me her life story.

Without spoiling it for those who still haven’t had the chance to read it, I literally don’t have anything bad to say about it; except I wish it was longer! Gabrielle’s personality spews through this entire book, and you feel not only the love but the pain.

I felt like she was a family member. Sister Nickie learned to become this beautiful, confident, and powerful woman she is. I love you sis. I wish you and your family nothing but success and blessings. I’m rooting for you. Always.

In the words of sis herself,

“And anything I have accomplished, I did so not in spite of being a black woman, but because I am a black woman.”

Gabrielle is the epitome of Black Girl Magic, it’s not even up for debate.

Intruder ALERT!

What inspired this particular post was a Facebook clip I saw a while back with Megan Good and Michael Ealy promoting their movie Intruder, on The Wendy Williams show.

What caught my attention was in that moment I realized Megan Good was a completely different person (at least from what I was currently watching) up until I can remember seeing her in films (Eve’s Bayou & Biker Boyz are just a few characters she’s played where my brain permanently stored her). I can admit, like most of us regular folk, we gossip/dissect/have an opinion about people we barely even know. Or, people we may have met at a concert, some show, whatever it is. Megan Good’s demeanor, vernacular, and just overall appearance was way different from the typical roles I’d seen her in. She’d grown. As any human being should. I had type-caste her as this promiscuous, vulgar, sexy, character.

In my opinion, celebrities are just like us, except they have way more money and are constantly in the spot light. They’re like this elite ass group of people; the never ending revolving door of cool kids in high school. Watching Megan Good talk about her life and the movie with Wendy Williams made me think, do the relationships people get into change who they are? I would say yes. Post her current husband (Devon Franklin) I can’t remember hearing or seeing anything negative and or positive about Megan Good. To see what I considered a total 360 was important. Why you ask? While celebrities may have it ‘easy’ they also are always in the spot light. They can’t do any wrong, ever. I would assume that they want what we all want, to be loved, respected and somehow make an impact on the world. Seeing how she carried herself was important because I saw her in a different light. She wasn’t the ‘same ol Megan’. I had judged and tore apart this women’s life as if I knew her personally. I had to check myself. As much as I may like her or any other celebrity, the way I look at their lives compared to mine is, if they aren’t helping me in anyway, shape or form, I shouldn’t care or be so focused on them. No shade. Clearly our paths in life were different, but it took me watching this video to just realize that much more that celebrities grow and evolve just like we do.

They have the same hurt, problems, and ‘life’ situations just at a faster pace. If there’s nothing you take away from this entire post it’s simple. Don’t judge a book by it’s cover, or what you think their story is. Know that every persons path is not meant for you; and to change. Never be the same person you were. If Megan was the same ‘Megan’ I had envisioned her as, she probably never would’ve met her husband. I could tell by watching this video she had grown as a person. That goes for any celebrity! We can’t keep assuming things about people. You know what they say when you assume. I’m sure you wouldn’t want to make an ass out of yourself.

 

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

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Friends, Family, and Supporters today is a special day! It has been ONE FULL YEAR since I’ve been a PUBLISHED AUTHOR. I cannot thank you, to whomever is reading this, how much I appreciate all the love and support I’ve had thus far. Being published has had it’s ups and down…. mainly ups!

I’d like to start off by saying I have been able to come out of my comfort zone which is a big thing for me, but don’t worry I’m not stopping just yet. This post will highlight all I’ve done this year, and to encourage anyone who has ever thought about publishing a book or whatever it is to follow your dream. I’m always a call, text, DM, or comment away.  I will also be highlighting things I did once I became published. Being new to this I had to think about what would make my brand different, what would make people want to buy my book, or any future merchandise I may have.

So, in this year I’ve gone to numerous open mics and poetry readings. I was able to perform at some, or simply just listen to the greatness on stage. I have learned the power of Networking. The one plus to having social media when being a millennial is having contact with those you may not have exchanged numbers with. I have also been part of a Podcast episode. A good friend of mine from high school and her co-host interviewed me to discuss my journey to becoming published, and it was so much fun! (Shout out to “The BlackStreet Podcasts). During this year I have been part of a panel discussion for the FEMININE ENERGY event. Thank you to Natasha and Zee for the opportunity. What better way to empower women than by having two great women to host how to be fierce and how to uplift one another. To feel all the genuine love in a room full of women was magical. I was also a vendor at the #QueenswithHoney event. Another important day where women were empowering and uplifting each other.

If it’s one thing I’ve learned in this year, not only being published but just as a woman is that there’s a shift happening. It could just be the women I’ve encountered, but it feels great. To know that there are women out there who don’t succumb to the stereotypes and truly support others and want to see everyone win. A comedian (@lalamilan) I follow on Instagram once said, and I’m paraphrasing, “Women are so caught up on only feeding themselves but if they stopped and realized that what set of skills one woman has, another woman could obtain, we could all EAT.” Someone’s going to miss that gem, but it’s okay.

In this year I have grown as a writer. To be honest, I haven’t written anything in months, how ironic huh? Life, stress, just adult-ing takes over sometimes. It feels good to know that I have the support from friends, followers, family, etc. that when I do post something, somebody is always watching. At least I’d like to think so. I’ve also realized that just because I wear many hats doesn’t mean that I need to have them on all at once…whew! That was a gem right there! *pats self on back*  I’ve learned that when I do pick up a pen, or click the keys on my keyboard that something amazing is going to come from it, and I have a fire ignited that takes a while to dim. I can say that writing, and being published is a great accomplishment, and I do plan on publishing more books.

If there is one thing I want to change about being published, it’s utilizing my social media more. Doing more live videos, talking about my journey (and not just to those who ask me directly). I’m sure I follow plenty of people who aren’t quite sure what to do. So I do plan on utilizing my resources more. I also need and want to start memorizing my poems more. Figuring out how to market myself better. If there is one thing I can suggest for anyone who has a hustle, or considers themselves an entrepreneur, whatever it is… make your IG a business page. Having a business page has plenty of tweaks and cool features a regular IG doesn’t.

I also designed two sets of business cards;  why two you ask? The first set was because I didn’t have any for the longest time, so I felt totally unofficial lol and they were a basic design. Although I loved them, I quickly ordered a new set and these are so much better. So, business cards are a plus if you don’t already have them. I created a website, which hasn’t had that much traffic but on there you can purchase my books as well as some bracelets I had designed for a spoken word event I went to a while back.

To end, Thank you again to anyone who has purchased, shared, commented, or written a review on any of my platforms! I hope the followers I do have continue to grow and increase. I want to #spreadlovewithwriting and show the world that being able to express how you feel through writing is sometimes the best medicine.

Below are some pictures from some of the events I mentioned and others are things I’ve done this year. Feel free to if you’re not already, follow my handles! I’ll leave those down below too.

 

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My book signing 7.28. to celebrate me being published 5.22.18.
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I enjoyed a game night with friends and raffled off my book.
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The ‘Honey’ T-shirt I purchased from the “Queens with Honey” Event
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Queens with Honey Event.
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I met Karlous Miller and gave him a copy of my book.
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This was my first ‘Vending’ Event if I’m not mistaken after my book signing. One of my kids moms (from my second job when I had two) asked me to be a vendor at her Church’s annual Women’s Weekend.
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My vision board from “Queens with Honey.”
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Myself, LeAnn and Sam, from the “Feminine Energy” Event.
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My second poetry night, I performed here as well.
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My first spoken word event. I performed that night for the first time!

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Well-Read Black Girl

 

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Well-Read Black Girl by Glory Edim literally gave me all the feels. I first caught interest in reading this book on her Instagram @wellreadblackgirl. Here she posts anything and everything related to literature and incorporates all of the #blackgirlmagic. So I literally don’t even know what to say to continue because this book was just that amazing.

I loved learning about how each author fell in love with reading, and what experiences they took away from what reading taught them in their early stages of life into womanhood. Each authors story was different and you were able to feel and understand why reading changed their lives and how in a way, it was an outlet. @Gabby3shabby aka Gabyy Sidibe, ya’ll know her for her character as Precious in Push and Becky Williams from Empire. Her story, whew chile! It stuck out to me the most because she talked about growing up she wasn’t the favorite child and reading was an escape for her essentially. All she wanted to do was stick to herself and mind her own business. Her father was religious and her mother seemed to just do what her husband asked, so Gabby grew up not understanding/liking how when it came to her fathers religious beliefs she had to be the stay at home wife, and her brother could do as he pleased. So, because she went against the grain her relationship with her family just wasn’t the typical.

Gabby says, “It took a while for me to unlearn the bad lessons my parents taught me about my existence by accident, as well as the bad lessons the media has been teaching me on purpose (that’s another story entirely), but I’m glad I have learned. I’m even grateful for the bad lessons I was taught in the first place. As it turns out, I’m pretty stubborn, so teaching me that my life would be bad fueled my ambition to have the best life possible. And I do. Ahmed is still both my parents’ favorite child, and that’s fine. I’m the one who grew up to be rich, so they can all suck it.” That last part! (emoji clapping hands). I just felt exhilarated for you Gabby because it was like you were saying, ‘hey I may not have had the ideal childhood and what you all expected me but the gag is, I made it and I’m here. And hello… it doesn’t help that you’re rich! Go girl, you give me so much inspiration!

This book I think will show future generations of women of all ages to embrace who they are. We as black woman are so powerful, and we can do so much! If only we did things like this, instead of what only society shows of how the black women is always “black and angry.” I digress…because baby! I can give ya’ll a full rant about what I think society thinks us black women can’t do. Did you catch that?

I wish to all who is reading this post please get this book. If it made you feel like I did you won’t be disappointed! Plus, there’s a (poop emoji) ton of other books that each person discussed in their particular chapter. If you’re a nerd like me, you’ll be reading so much more! This book is inspirational, uplifting, empowering, and with an abundance of #blackgirlmagic Queen-dopeness you’ll feel like YOU CAN DO ANYTHING, and YOU CAN!

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Room; First Thoughts Fiction

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Here it is yall… my next review for my #firstthoughtsfiction segement. I know it’s been a minute.

So, I’ve never been the type to read a book before watching the movie… and the book Room by Emma Donoghue wasn’t the exception to the rule. I enjoyed the book, as well as the movie (it’s on Netflix) but I was skeptical in even wanting to complete the book nor watch the movie just because it was such a slow start for the story to pick up while reading. I must admit, when I started the book life happened (brown skin girl emoji shrug), so that could be a small part as to why it took me a minute to start.

Emma Donoghue is a best selling author with multiple books; Room being one of the books that put her on the best selling charts. This book is raw, intense, whimsical, and heavy just to give a few details. Don’t be expecting it to be all sunshine and rainbows, you’ll definitely need to take a break sometimes.

What made this book so different was, it was told in the perspective of the little boy, Jack. Room was about a mother “Ma” who lived with her son Jack in an 11 x 11 room. She was kidnapped and raped and held captive for years until she was able with the help of her son to escape. The first half of this book is all about Ma and Jack in room. He perceives everything as “fake” except themselves. Although this book was deep and unbearable at times, there were times where Donoghue showed Jack’s intelligence but also his young-mindedness; you’ll have to read the book to truly understand what I mean.

The second half of the book was about Jack and Ma’s escape and what their lives were like after being free. For me, the second half was easier to swallow, but you could tell that even being ‘home’ for Jack was different. For the mother she struggled and suffered from being able to express herself. She was resilient and did everything she could with the circumstances she was given to protect herself and her son; but being in a ‘normal’ environment took a toll on her (depicted only in the movie).

In Room for Jack he seemed comfortable, at ease and safe. He didn’t quiet understand that outside of room there was a whole world he knew nothing about. I loved how Donoghue portrayed Jack’s emotions with learning all of this new information. It was a lot for him as a five-year-old boy to go from having only knowing the room to the world. In the movie, I think Jack was depicted as he was in the novel. You could see and feel while reading how he had to handle his old and new life.

What I wish was consistent in the book more so than the movie, was you were able to see more about Jack and Ma after they were freed. It showed their everyday life, how Jack adapted too his life outside of room, and more importantly his moms role. She struggled once they were free and wasn’t able to tend to her son, even though she was able too go above and beyond as best she could in the book. Donoghue’s attention to detail was given more life in the movie from Ma’s perspective. I always hear “the movie was better than the book”, but in my opinion that is never the case. I’m a true book lover at heart. Reading a book gives way more detail for me than watching the movie.

When reading this book, please have an open mind. Although I didn’t (lol) and it took me a few times to get the ball rolling, over all it was enjoyable. It was difficult at times to remember that the perspective of the book was told in Jack’s voice. That’s something I had to get use too, but that’s something that kept me intrigued the more I continued to read as well.

If I could leave you with this, imagine being the characters in Room, at least five year old Jack. You have the whole world to live, breath, and make an impression. Leave your mark on the world in someway shape or form. As I type this, I think that’s something the book taught me. Being confined in one space and thinking that’s all there is, you’ll never succeed. Take this book in a sense as a learning lesson. Don’t be confined to thinking you need to stay in one area in your life. Grow, change, and adapt to the circumstances you’re given, even sometimes if they are bad. Things will get better, and you’ll have plenty of time, and space to make a difference and start over. Everyday.

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Goodbye 2018

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With 2018 coming to an end I am ready for the new year. This year I learned the following about myself and plan to keep certain goals (you’ll see below) as the New Year approaches.

  • I don’t have to stretch myself thin for anyone.
  • I can care for people from a distance.
  • Not having low confidence in myself concerning standardized testing.
  • Understanding that I may have low times but I should never let it defeat me for days ahead.
  • I passed the reading portion of my test that had me STRESSED out; now, the next step is to pass the writing portion.
  • I bought myself a new computer.
  • Read two books a month.
  • Continue to build my credit and save properly.
  • Memorize more poems and perform them; which includes going to more events/networking.
  • Continue to write and publish books.
  • Get my Doctorate in Mental Health Counseling.
  • Staying Positive.
  • Continue to love myself more.

Let  2018 stay in the past and I hope you continue to make smart decisions to better yourself going forward. It’s okay to have set backs, it’s part of life, just don’t get stuck. Have a great and prosperous New Year, Be Blessed and I wish you nothing but success!

Feel free to comment and let me know what goals you’ve set for yourself! 🙂

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Can Exes Really Be Friends?

 So, I’ve discussed the above title of this post numerous times, and I am honestly on the fence. I think exes can be friends depending on the stage both parties are at in their lives. Example, if you and a boy dated in middle school and ya’ll broke up, okay cool no problem there. I don’t see any middle school couples seriously falling in love forever, wanting to build a future together, etc. Not saying it can’t happen, but in my middle school days, myself and my friends had ‘little’ boyfriends that our parents may or may not have known about and we were ‘together’ and that was it. I mean really, in middle school, what kind of ‘dating’ was there? As funny as it is now, what could we really do? Eat lunch together, pass notes, and maybe walk each other home, lol. Oh young love, how innocent it was back then. But, before I continue, I had one boyfriend in middle school and if you’re reading this, I’m just setting the foundation, lol. I was very happy back in my middle school days. This post is not to make it seem like my middle school love was horrible; it was what it was, I’m not saying you meant nothing, we’ve clearly both grown and matured. Yay adult-hood! There’s a bigger picture to this post.

Now, once we start hitting high school/college level I think even then it’s a yes, it just all depends on how deep the relationship was. Did ya’ll meet each others parents, were ya’ll going out on dates frequently, spending time together/getting to know each other? In high school I had a small handful of boyfriends, one I dated twice, but I don’t speak to them. There’s no harm or foul I just think we (and like most couples) people grow apart, ya’ll don’t hang in the same circles anymore, or even if you do hopefully it’s not awkward.

In today’s world exes should be able to be cordial if both parties feel it’s necessary. For me, my first serious boyfriend was definitely hard to get over because I was in love with him, and vice versa. This was the man I could’ve sworn I was going to marry. Granted we started dating as we were going into college, but like other boyfriends I had, I eventually got over him. That relationship was the serious, ‘Dangerously in Love’ love lol. Being in that relationship, like ANY relationship should taught me things about myself and for any future relationships.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong being friends with your ex, but it’s harder for females to get over our ex because we’re in love, we have memories, pictures, and gifts to remind us what we once had. Woman are emotional, and we tend to be the more passionate partner in our relationships.

To be transparent, with 2018 coming to an end, for any past/newly/future boyfriends I may have, yes I’m speaking this into existence. I only see us being cordial. I don’t want to reconnect, get back together, pick back up where we left off. If we were unable to fix things while we were dating then clearly it wasn’t meant to be. No, I’m not writing you off, BUT I am deciding that if I think you’re not good for my mental health then I’m leaving you in my past. Or, if I just really don’t think you’ve changed in anyway then it’s a No. I’m not saying if we see each other I won’t speak, or if you text me I won’t respond, things are just different. The relationship and memories we had will be just that. I don’t see or want to get back with any old/future/blast from the past relationships because I’m not compromising any more. I’m just choosing to love me more than I loved you. To anyone who’s dated me you know I care hard and I love even harder, but I’m being selfish with me. I’ve literally always been in relationships and I’m not trying to get my heart broken, again, or deal with the ups and downs that come with relationships. I’m not anti relationship, I’m not anti second chances, because I’ve done it before; but I will definitely be taking my own time into consideration.

I’m choosing in this up coming new year to work on ME. Do things for me. So, if you’re an ex and you’re reading this. Text me if you feel like talking, like a picture/leave a comment (not that social media should be the “be all end all”  in any capacity), but just don’t be a stranger. Treat me like a friend if you can handle that, and I’ll return the same energy.

To any followers, male specifically since this one is for you. Sure, I don’t mind going on a date, or two; but that’s just it. Don’t tell me later on how much you like me, I won’t be giving you the time of day. I just need to love and take care of Jordan first. If you’re really that interested in me, you’ll be patient. If not, you’re still the homie.

To any female followers, I’m not saying you can’t be friends with your ex, but I’m learning the only real way to get over anyone you’ve loved is to not talk to them as much, keep yourself busy, and EVENTUALLY it will happen. Trust me, I just went through this, and it was super annoying. As crazy as it sounds, one day I just woke up and it was like, oh, I’m not thinking of (insert name) as much. You will find your peace again. It’ll take time.

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Confession Time

confession timeSo… I have a confession to make. I have this idea that poetry is supposed to rhyme. People always ask me, “How long have you been writing?” or “What made you write a book?” My answer is always the same. I’ve always loved to read and write ever since I was a child, so it just made sense to me to follow my dreams.

My original plan was to write children’s books, and while that’s still on my many list of things to accomplish I really started to hone in on my poetry and short stories once I got into high school. From there, things just took off for me.

Confession two, whenever I think of poetry I think of some bomb poetry slam/contest/battle. I want to be the person whose writing is so amazing that people don’t always catch the innuendo’s. I just want to be mind blowing when I spit my poetry. I understand that comes with confidence, and putting myself out there more; I’m working on it.

I’ve been reading different poetry books from some amazing authors and one day it hit me. Their writing is so simple but hold it holds so much meaning. I have a tendency to over think and I want things perfect when it comes to my work I equate poetry with big words and double meanings; and things that people have to read over and over to understand.

I’m loving this new space I’m in with my work. I can’t wait to keep sharing on all platforms. I am understanding that my poetry doesn’t have to be long and elaborate, although sometimes it is just because I feel like I haven’t gotten everything out I wanted to say. I’m loving that I’m learning to write shorter and just get to the point, plus, it’ll be easier for me to memorize :). But like Erykah Badu says, “Now keep in mind that I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my sh*t.”

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the Secret Life of CeeCee Wilkes; First Thoughts Fiction

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the Secret Life of CeeCee Wilkes by Diane Chamberlain is a book that has twists and turns every chapter. In short, this book is about survival, secrets, love and lies. The main character CeeCee Wilkes grows from being a naive, gullible, and care free teen and transforms to a woman who depends on the relationships she’s built to keep a secret that could destroy all she’s worked hard to forget.

This was my first time reading a book by this author, and it won’t be my last. Once I was done reading I immediately found Diane Chamberlain’s website to discover she’s written more turn twisting books that look just as interesting.

the Secret Life of CeeCee Wilkes is about second chances. CeeCee did the best she could with the hand she was dealt, and without giving too much away, she was able to turn the tables and win. There were times she counted herself out but she had an amazing support system that didn’t give up on her even when she felt like giving up on herself.

This book had me in my feelings each chapter. I felt like I was part of the family and I didn’t want anymore destruction to happen to CeeCee even if she was part of the problem. She was a protector, a lover and a survivor. Just imagine being in her shoes… falling in love and having your whole life change because of someone who you trusted whole heartedly.

If you’re looking for a book that will have you on a roller coaster ride this is it. Diane Chamberlain has become one of my favorite authors.

Would you be able to keep a secret for years that would affect your future?

Little Bee; First Thoughts Fiction

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Little Bee by Chris Cleave took me forever to read simply because life got in the way. I had to start it over three times; with the third time being the final charm (pun intended).

Little Bee was about a young Nigerian refugee woman (Little Bee) who was released from her detention center and travels miles away to the only people she knows; the O’Rourke family who saved her life but also tried their hardest to forget the tragic incident of how they met. So I don’t spoil too much, this book I would say has a theme of ‘wanting to be free.’ Every character, small or large is suffering, or going through some type of journey that they only hope keeps them safe and sound on the other side. This book is about second chances. This book is about starting over the best way you know how but being scared (you know what-less) because you don’t know what the outcome will turn out to be.

What I loved about this book was each chapter alternated between Little Bee and Sarah’s (the wife in the story) perspective. Little Bee’s perspective was about survival, never forgetting where she came from, and trying her hardest to re-create herself in a world she really had no business being part of. Little Bee studied how people in England carried themselves because she thought that would be the key to saving her life. She felt like changing her vernacular and knowing facts about a world she would’ve never been placed in if it wasn’t that day on the beach with Sarah was her out. Her way of being free and starting over.

For Sarah, she too was about surviving but in the sense of, she had to focus on the present and not go back to who she was. A woman who was lost and just seemed to go through the motions. Essentially, she was changing for the better but still held on to who she used to be. Sarah was a people pleaser, but failed to focus on how to properly love, balance, and care for her family. It was like she was in denial about things and she knew it but she didn’t take the steps to figure out how to get out of those moments. So she went about her daily routine, struggling because she never spoke up until it was too late; but redeeming herself when Little Bee came back into her life was her way of being free. Helping someone else was they key for her life to be better.

Little Bee and Sarah are one in the same, and it’s crazy because their lives were totally different prior to when they were put together and it changed everything. Their willingness to help one another in a time of turmoil, both physically, and globally shaped who they became as women. They depended on each other and I think subconsciously knew that with all the secrets they kept they needed each other because one couldn’t survive without the other.

Chris Cleave also has another book,  entitled Incendiary. I enjoyed his style of writing  in Little Bee and hopefully you will too. Although it was a slow read in the beginning the relationships the characters developed with each other continuously peaked my interest. Each chapter there was something I wasn’t expecting. A story of two women trying to survive in a world they felt like they didn’t belong too.